Currency

You can have anything you want, but you must consider the Karma of having it-- Lee Lozowick, AS IT IS Everyone wants to have something, a new this a new that, relationships are broken because we are searching for the newest toy to feed our ego. My husband/wife doesn't fall all over me telling me how amazing I am-- I will pay attention to the shmuck in the corner, they will give me what I want. But in return for the schmuck's attention, what have I agreed to-- what system of currency has been exchanged, because nothing in life is free-- Every thing has a price-- the attention you PAID to the schmuck has to be exchanged for somthing, sure your husband/wife may never find out, but what price have you paid to have your ego stroked-- This system of payment is never discussed, but it is exchanged, every action we bring into our life has an effect on everything, it makes the decision to do something so much more than a flipant repsonse, than a flirtatios look. At 18, my life changed because I became pregnant, at 19 I had a baby, she is beautiful, but I was not sure of the exchange that took place in that instant-- I paid for the sex with the responsiblity of my life. After my baby was born, my life was no longer my own-- there was no parties, no college, just work and trying to take care of this amazing life that I created with someone I had sex with once in the back of a car. Believe me I was not thinking about the exchage of currency at that moment-- My daughter is 23 today, could not imagine my life without her-- but there was an exchange, one I was not ready for at 19. I had dreams of being a journalist, going to other countries to study the religions from the East. I had dreams of college-- all were put on hold for the exchange of having my daughter teach me patience, humility and love. At 25 I got married, another exchange, I got the short end of the stick in that exchange-- but it was not without my knowledge, I knew it was not the right time, I knew he was not the one-- another exchange of currency, at 28 I got divorced and in that divorce more currency was exchanged-- this time not only did I pay but my daughter did as well. Attention Paid is ATTENTION PAID-- you can have anything you want, but you must consider the Karma of having it--